Jesus be the Centre

Jesus be the centre, be my source be my light Jesus,
Jesus be the centre, be my hope, be my song, Jesus,
Be the Fire in my heart, be the wind in these sails, be the reason that I live Jesus, Jesus
Jesus be my vision, be my path be my guide, Jesus
Be the Fire in my heart be the wind in these sails, be the reason that I live Jesus, Jesus

I find it amazing how I can pray to God, and pray earnestly and pray for answers. I can worship him, and still mean the words that I am singing, and recognize that what I am singing or doing is truth. Yet, still not have those words be true. I can pretty much do everything right, and still not have God at the centre of everything I am doing. I prayed long and hard for answers the other night, just something I am dealing with, being at bible school, a good place to find answers right? So I was looking for answers to some personal things that I was dealing with.... I was singing in chapel and meant everythign I was singing, and knew it, I knew that God was awesome and that he was holy, and I meant it when I sang it. Yet, through both of these scenerios I realized God still was not at the centre. I was not putting him number one, that one little issue was taking the centre, it was being at the source of what I was doing. Not out of love for God, not because I just wanted to show God what I thought of him, but because I wanted answers... I was trying to suck up to God, and hoping it would help me to get rid of this thing I was/am dealing with. I realized that I was digging myself a hole, and I was not about to get myself out of it. Today I realized singing that song (above) that I was not living that out, and in turn stuff was building up, I was becoming confused and I was becoming overwhelmed spiritually. I realize now that I need to put God at the centre, not to get answers, but because as soon as I do, everything else will just fall into place. As soon as I put God ahead of that issue, then I do not have to worry about it anymore, and can focus on God, and I can be reassured that he will take care of that issue. Right now, I have no idea what putting God at the centre means, fully. Yet, I have a sense that acknowledging him as the centre is a good place to start and can only lead me down the right path. Recognizing him in everything I am doing, and doing his will and not mine. I hope I will start on the path of discovering what putting God at the centre means, and that you will join me in doing so. That God can start to take control of every aspect of life, through that decision to make him the centre. For the first time in my life, I am alright with that aspect of giving everything, that I am and everything that I can become and want for my life, over to God. I cannot begin to tell you how freeing that is.

I hope you can do and feel the same.