Confusion?

So, it's christmas, its coming in the next day here, and it is this amazing holiday, so happy and full of joy and cheer. I am home from school for the christmas break and get to see everyone again which is really good, and it is a really nice break. Yet, I come home and I get all this time on my hands, which is good cause as I said in my first blog, it is good to work through all the information crammed into your head in three months at bible school. Yet, still, a lot of time to do.... well... really whatever you want. So I decided to rediscover my love for reading. (as much as you read at bible school, reading a "textbook" is different than leisure reading) So I started reading this book called The Shack, i really recommend it, very interesting thoughts in here. It certainly has challenged a lot of my theology, and beliefs about God, and who God. Not to say that this book is to be mistaken for the bible, but I believe a lot of what is in it does line up with the bible, and makes sense in my head. Anyway, this book was amazing for me, and really for me was a breath of fresh air, and has really helped me answer some questions that I have been fighting through, some pretaining to God's love for me, and just who God is. Not to say that this book got rid of my problems, or helped me to get rid of my problems, but it helped me to see things in a different light, and take things from a different vantage point, which has started to change who I am at the core (I pray).
Yet, there is still a lot of confusion with me right now, pertaining to a lot of things. There is a lot of questioning, and a lot of waiting.... which I am not necessarily fond of. There is still a jumble in my head, and a lot I am wanting God to do in my life, and I have a lot of expectations of myself. I would pray that you would pray for me, as I am trying to work through some things, and through some of this confusion that is going through my head. Right now, I am not the person I want to be... and I think that I still need to grow greatly in many areas of my life. Which really is the joy of life, is growing in it. But I pray that God could show us all where we need to grow, and that we would be open to him working to help us grow in that area. I have come to realize things do not change over night with God. He loves to see the progression, and the little steps turning into bigger steps... it is making the choice each day, and taking time to grow. There is so much from this book The Shack that I could blog about... I think I could go on for days about new discoveries, that God revealed to me through this man's writing, and his friends experience, whether real or not... (you will understand if you read the book) but I think it would all be better if you just read the book, and see God's revelations for yourself.

Christmas is a great time to rest, and put aside the worries that we carry with us, and refocus on God, and the great story of Jesus birth, that changes the world forever. I pray that God could show you something new and exciting in the Christmas story, and that God would be with you this Christmas. Merry Christmas and safe travelling.

Nick Poetker