What do you want most?

What do you want most in life? This question poses a problem, there are a lot of options and only one option really. Unless you are fooling yourself there is only one thing that you can choose. For many of us we would say, " I want a comfortable life, a family, a steady job, and to settle down and eventually retire and live happily ever after." Some others might say, "I want to 'live life to the fullest" whatever they mean by that, as that alone has so many other meanings than we know. Yet, this question seems to be such a trick question. Very few would answer, "I want God" more than anything else in this whole world, more than a family more than living life to the fullest (which will happen if we have God, as he promises "life to the full") There are very few people who will actually answer this question, "what do you want most in life?" with the response, "God".
When you think about it, it is actually quite a sad thing. Christians and non-christians alike, want something in their life more than they actually want God. We may fool ourselves into thinking that "well yea Nick but besides God (the obvious) I want a family, or life to the fullest, or just to have fun." But I do not think that having God be the one thing, the one person, the one relationship that we want most is such an obvious choice anymore for many of us. We fool ourselves into believing that he is, and yet we live life by our own rules with our own plans, and act like God is a spectator who will jump in a rescue us when we are not having so much fun anymore, and then we can go on our merry own way ignoring the fact that God needs to be, in fact, the centre of our lives.
I know in my own life I have neglected to do so. I have come to the realization that at this present time I do not know what I want. I cannot honestly say that right now I want God above everything else. I wish I could but if I am going to be honest with myself and God I cannot say that. I hope and pray that I can get to the point where the one thing that i want most in this world, and out of this world is God, but I think it will take time. This is not to say I do not believe in God or follow him, yet there is a major difference between being a christian and believing, and making the relationship with God the number one priority over all else. EVERYTHING... Think about that word for a second. EVERYTHING.... EVERYTHING.... EVERYTHING. Out of all that is in this world the 6 billion some odd people, the cool new toys and gadgets, all the material object, and every hope and dream that has ever been conjured up in my tiny little brain. To be able to say that over all of that reigns God, and he is above and beyond all that is truly and utterly amazing. I cannot wait for the day when I can say it, but yes it will take time and a lot of hard work, but I think it will be worth it. Every relationship is a pursuit. There is a pursuit for the perfect relationship, where there is no fights, no quarrels, no misunderstandings. In every relationship we have we want that perfect relationship, but it will never happen. I am hoping I can catch a glimpse, and that you will join me, in getting that perfect relationship with God, and making God the thing, person, that I want most in life.

Nick Poetker